Book report 14

Hi, everyone!

I would like to tell you about Charlie’s progress report of October 11 to November 20.

He wake up in the morning and don’t know where he is or what he is doing here. He lies in bed for days and don’t seems to know who or where he is. Fugues of amnesia. All so cruelly logical, the result of speeding up all the processes of the mind. He learned so much so fast, and now his mind is deteriorating rapidly. What if he won’t let it happen? What if he fights it?

He is forgetting things he learned. Motor activity impaired. He keeps tripping and dropping things. Now he realized his coordination is bad. He have to move slowly to get things right.

 

Charlie said,

“I don’t regret the experiment. I had an empty, stupid smile.

And everyone played tricks on me, and laughed at me.

Even though I didn’t understand why they were laughing, I sensed that if they could laugh at me they would like me. And I wanted them to like me. I acted like a child and I even laugh at myself along with them.

But I don’t feel like laugh at myself right now.
Maybe that’s why it was so important for me to learn. I thought it would make people like me. I thought I would have friends. That’s something to laugh at, isn’t it?”

I felt something deep feeling with his words.